she deserves better

Her heart must have skipped a beat when she answered the phone. It was his voice.. boy who didn't know how to love her. Boy she loved very much. Boy whose hypothetical children she abandoned because he was not committing. Boy who made her feel love again.

Is he back? Did he decide he wants her finally? Will she bring back those imaginary children of their future together?

 

"Hey... it's been a while.. what's up?" she said, trying not to sound so unprepared. His voice brought back these flashbacks.. his shoulders, his lips, his smell, asleep together on the couch. Pain.

She had no idea what he wanted. Ideally it would have been to say one of the following:

- "I love you, take me back, you're the only one I was ever happy with." to which she would say "No, you've had your chance and it's over. I'm sorry."

OR

- "I know you deserve better than me. I want to apologize for the hurt I've caused you. Let me take you out to dinner." to which she would say "No, you've had your chance and it's over. There's no need for apologies."

OR

- "After you and I were over, I realized no other woman could make me happy, and I'm gay now."

It was close. Quite close. But she couldn't have seen it coming.

He did want to talk to her. She decided to hear him out.

"Well... I know I hurt you. I know I floated back and forth and wasn't giving you what you deserved. I didn't realize I was losing you in that process. I'm so sorry. I never realized what I was doing was hurtful. It haunted me for so long...

Now I'm calling because... well.. I met someone. And you made me realize not to make that same mistake again. So I'm getting married. And I have you to thank for it. Thank you... I mean without you I never would have -"

*click*